“For, after all, how do we know that two and two make four? Or that the force of gravity works? Or that the past is unchangeable? If both the past and the external world exist only in the mind, and if the mind itself is controllable – what then?”

Mistake upon mistake regret upon regret I follow what everyone else says play it proper mama please the big man or at least that’s what they told me forever then my counsellor tells me my decisions are right and to reassess the relationship but I know I’ll just sit sink comfy n sad into this hot boiling bath burn me up into nothing evaporate & flee. If only if only I could get up and run far like a fox run fast never look back break hearts never stay attached but I already can never connect like hi Aspergers never fuckin asked for that but even though I can’t follow my intuition, everywhere I go I leave a piece of me steady and still and I remember it clearly it just so happened you were my last stop at the station and I fed you ever part of my soul resigned my travels and crawled in you sucked me up whole your heart like a wasp trap sweet and juicy once you’re in you can’t get out my hearts the same way but worse. Remember that time I told you I loved you and to just leave me already and you said I love you too that’s the fucking problem.


dont u hate it when u have a romantic dream about someone who u never thought about in a romantic way and then u wake up and have some weird crush on them like wtf subconscious why u gotta do this to me